good_goodbye (good_goodbye) wrote in depressedteens,

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hi again...

Well, I changed my mind :\
This is xbittersweetx66... I left the community under that username but I kept thinking that maybe this could have helped. & then I saw some of your comments & I wanted to take your advice, so... here I am. It's kind of a nice feeling knowing that I'm free to write whatever I want, & I don't have to worry about freaking my friends out.
Um. I didn't go to school today. I get migraines, & I had a really bad one all day yesterday... It didn't go away until late last night, so my mom didn't make me go to school. That was nice of her, but now I'm wishing I didn't have to go tomorrow either. Or the next day. Or the next.
I never really introduced myself properly, so.. my name is Natalie, & I'm 17. I'm getting really good at hiding my depression from the people I care about, so no one really knows about it. I've never been diagnosed, & I've never seen a therapist.
Ironically, though, that is what I am studying to be.
Thanks for listening.
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I've been through the same thing as you and though i'm only 13 I've felt the pain. I have. I know how you feel about not wanting to mess up your friendship, but how do you know he won't just listen? I mean I've learned and am still learning that if you dont take risks, you'll never be happy. I distanced myself from friends with the same theory, but instead of protecting me, it hurt me because I felt lonely. You're friends should always be there for you, through the good and the bad, and for me, now that it's good, i'm closer than ever to my friends. So it may sound like the worst advice, but I promise you, if you try some of my advice, it might help.
Hey Natalie, I totally get that. For a while I was thinking of becoming a therapist too. I'm not really sure anymore.
I have been going to therapy for two years. Sometimes it can be very hard an painful. But especially at the very beginning, it helped me a lot. Sometimes it is a relief to have a therapist. I guess I find that it is a relief because I don't need to worry so much about my own mental health and stuff like that...someome is kind of looking after me.