i feel horrible for my boyfriend. he has to deal with me being manic, having panic attacks, being depressed, and wanting to die. well, not really wanting to die, i want more than anything just to be sane. but when something goes wrong i can't help but think "you should just kill yourself" over and over again.
it seems like no one understands depression.
my boyfriend asks "why can't you just be happy?"
and i don't know why.
but anyway, i don't know. i'm hoping to make some friends and get some support. feel free to add me if you want to.